Next week I have too get an appointment with my doctor. Im sick but thats not the reason Im going, I need him to look over my files and walk me through some things. And I just realised Im not only nervous: Im scared as hell.
Is it because he is new for me? Am I scared about what he will say? Is it a tiny cell somewhere in my head who thinks he will wave his magic wave? Or maybe its so simple that its because there wont be anybody there to hold my hand, to comfort/talj with me afterwards or give me a big lollipop!
I have no clue!
And its so frustrating! Please pretty head give me some peace…